Hii, first off, I love your videos and your design work. Secondly, if you don't mind, I'd love to know more about your anxiety and how you deal with it? I am asking because a few years ago I couldn't barely leave the house, since then it gradually got better, so I ended up being able to go out and about when someone was with me, and now I can go out myself, but I always avoid it. I feel like this is holding me back in life. Just wanted to know your thoughts, Thank you <3 x
(Please remember that I am not a professional and I’m just telling you what worked for me. If you don’t already have help, it would be good to talk to a professional about these things and work through your anxiety.)
I got my anxiety mostly from school, pressure, and people, so I avoided all of those things for a long time. I also barely left the house. I completely understand what you mean when you say it’s holding you back in life! I wish I could tell you some kind of magical thing you can do to make it easier, but it just doesn’t exist. The fact that you know it’s holding you back in life and you do want more is a good first step! What I learned in treatment when it comes to anxiety, is that you have to go through it and face your fears. I was terrified of people, public transport, and crowds, so going into the center of Amsterdam was not my favourite thing. I eventually just started doing it because there’s so much I wanted to see, and the more you do it, the more you get used to it. I had panic attacks for years every day when I was in the city center, and it was exhausting, but I get them less and less now. I see that as progress! (Also: celebrate the little victories. Realising that you’ve taken a step, even a tiny one, will make you more motivated to keep going.)
I think for me, the most important thing was Document Your Life. I wanted to make a good video every month, and it couldn’t be just me sitting in my room watching Netflix. So I did things I normally wouldn’t do, like going to museums, concerts, parks, and doing things with friends outside of my comfort zone. Just keep challenging yourself, and keep looking back at how it used to be to see your progress!
I’m going back to school in September to finish high school and I’m so scared that my anxiety is going to get worse again. I haven’t had a really heavy panic attack in weeks. But I’m just going to look at it as an adventure. I’m going to be in my favourite city ever, every day, and I’m going to make the best of it. Right now, I’m just trying not to worry about stuff that’s months away, it’s only going to ruin my summer.
I hope that helped!